A Fresh Start

June 1^st.

I think it’s a good day for a new beginning. It's been a rocky road for a while, and it feels like time to smooth it out.

Where to start? Maybe yesterday, when Lorene and I went out to Mesa del Sol because we were curious. How cool. It’s a new planned community based on sustainability, and neighborhood values, and green space, and getting outdoors. It sounds like just the kind of place we would like to be.  And, sure enough, we found a model home that totally clicked for both of us the minute we walked in.

Or, maybe I should start 6 months ago when I got downsized out of my teaching career and entered the world of RV sales. What a bitter sweet trip that has been.  I’ve learned so much, and LOVE the people I work with and the company I work for. I’ve been on a mentor program that pays a good salary plus small commissions. No other company does that. Well, now I go on straight commissions this month. I still have a ton to learn, but I’m selling and getting very positive feedback from my customers. I have had the pleasure of immersing myself in a job that I have great passion for. However, since I work weekends and Lorene does not, it has taken a toll on our relationship. I thought we could make the most out of our tiny bits of time off together, but we have found our world to be so burdened with responsibilities that there is no time to be spontaneous or joyful. Stuff like a crazy long commute for both of us, horses that must be fed right before and after work, 2 ½ acres of weeds to be mowed, parents living with us, plus all our other dogs and cats and chores.

Or, maybe I should start a couple of years ago when we got the bug to go RVing. We’ve had the itch ever since. We got the 5^th wheel and the truck, but now we don’t have the time to use it. We have enjoyed living the country life and having the horses, but the truth is, that now if we have any free time, we choose to go birding and RVing. That’s our real passion, and it is what we do best together.

So, why are we continuing to carry the burden of living way out here in the country when we work in Albuquerque? And why do we keep the horses when we don’t choose to ride them and they tie us down and prevent us from doing what we really love doing? Of course there are lots of reasons. It’s not simple.

But, today, on June 1^st, I’m thinking it’s time to make a change. It’s time for us to be on the same page, walk the same path, follow the same plan.

I don’t know where we will end up, but I do know that I have an extreme desire to downsize, simplify, streamline, declutter, and enjoy the simple things that make being in a relationship fulfilling.

I feel inspired to write about our journey. Maybe it will help inspire others, I don’t know. I’m always bugging Lorene about retiring early. I feel like bucking the system and living outside the box. It’s a good thing that she is so practical and conservative when it comes to money. It allows us to have nice things and live comfortably. However, it’s also good that I shake things up a bit, and dream about an unconventional path. We balance each other. And it keeps life interesting.